Live.Laugh.Love.

I stare out of my window, looking into nothing, And then laughed at my indifferent behavior But then I weep at the whys and hows Again I chide myself for being so weak. And thus I live my life, Walking along.. this pseudo world. The leaves are rustling, so does my heart, The sky is cloudy, so is my mind And the night is still. But my thoughts are not. The moon, though, gives me company. My empty room surrounds me all around. And thus I live my life, Walking along.. this pseudo world. I wonder whats the so called busyness And wonder if I'll ever live the real life, Am talking to so many faces, communicating with none. Am I unique? Or just plain lonely? But thus I live my life, Wandering along the masses, and Walking along.. this pseudo world.

So here I sit Bored and depressed Thinking of ways That I can become a success It's nerve wrecking Sitting at home, alone When others are out having a good time It makes me wonder How is life still worth it? The me I once knew, No longer lives anywhere near In a flash I was gone Leaving behind an empty shell I see off in the distance Someone I want to become Someone I miss, Who knew happiness- A small reflection Of who I was inside I feel like everyone hates me And that I am socially rejected But it doesn't matter cos I am as good as dead I bet you are reading this and I bet you are ready to judge so be my guest Sometimes I wonder Why I was put on this earth Like what my purpose is here and why I am feeling so hurt I feel like I am standing in the rain Crying in pain Thinking of everybody in vain As I move closer to the goal The me that I want to be Always seems to be just a step away. I hate the position That I am in right now But even...

I heard this song today, and just kept hearing it again and again. Its "What I've done" from the Linkin Park, and I am posting the lyrics below. What I've Done lyrics In this farewell There’s no blood There’s no Alibi ‘Cause I’ve Drawn Regret From the truth Of a Thousand Lies So let Mercy Come And Wash Away what i`ve Done I've faced myself To Cross out what I’ve Become Erase Myself And let Go of What I’ve done Put to rest What you Thought of Me While I clean this Slate With the Hands of Uncertainty For What I’ve Done I start again And whatever pain may come Today this ends I’m Forgiving What I’ve Done What I’ve Done Forgiving What I’ve Done.. I today regret of every mistake I have done, and every time I have stood as a obstructing block to myself and my dreams. I am not so sure, but I promise to try better this time.

So this week it has gone from acceptable to bad, and now to worse. Its just not understandable for me how much have I eluded myself from studies, my parents.. and other people. I have been doing things I like, only forgetting my duties and responsibilities. I am a dumb idiot. I never knew how to react to situations. Maybe will never ever know. A close friend of mine called me up an evening a few days back, and I started blabbering how I had missed her so much that day, and how I was trying to call her but thanks to the network I had never really been on line. (Which was true, of course, cos I never lie on such events.) There was only silence on the other end, an eerie silence. After a pause, she said, "You know what, my father has passed away..". I stood stunned. "What?", I said. Then she said more clearly, and this time my heart felt for her. I didn't know what to say. So dumb was I. The rest of the conversation just elaborates my stupidity a bit more. A...

I am not just posting something today for the sake of posting alone. This is an afterthought to a bizarre incident that once occurred in the Lord Jagannath Temple, Puri, where the Temple authorities admonished a Muslim family of three(all females) for entering the Temple premises. Not only that, they said horrible things to them about Islam caste and Muslims and a lot of other undescribable things. Is God not One for all? I just don't know where does this narrow mindedness came from..!! I remember, one day while traveling in a bus to my village, I got a seat besides a lady with a 3 -yr old cute child, who were deeply engrossed in a mother - child talk. As the bus moved further we passed a herd of cows, and the mother helped the child identify the animal - "That's a cow, see, it has two eyes like you, and two ears, one nose..". Through most of the journey(until, of course, the child fell asleep) The mother helped the kid associate with the things passing by, helpin...

If I was a Beat I would Pound in your Chest, And I would Beat You so Loud that You would Get No Rest You'd Toss and You'd Turn, Counting for a Little Sleep But as a Shit as I am, I would Scare Off all your Sleep. If I was a Rhythm I'd Flutter in Your Ear, Until I fluttered so Loud that you wouldn't just Hear You'd Hush me Away, and You'd be so Precise.. But You Aren't gonna Get Rid of me, I am Damn too Nice. If I was a Melody, so Pleasant and Plain, I'd Bury your Eardrums and You'd go Insane. You'd Submerge Yourself in Books to make me Benign But my Constant Irritation would just Rot Your Mind. If I was a voice, I'd Wrap around your Wrist, And you'd be So Full of Hate you'd Always Make a Fist You'd Smash in the Walls in your Home and at Work. And your poor Stupid Friends would call it a Quirk Behavior. If I was a Song I'd get Stuck in your Head And you'd Try to Scratch it Out Till you ended up Dead..!! Your Nails woul...

One of those Days a few years ago, just more than 8 years ago- something hit my town. something hit my state. something hit my people. October was dying. People were preparing for the upcoming winter. Steady rains started pouring. Few alarms raised. Fewer warning bells. The days was usual. Wind kept charging. Rains kept teeming. Waters broke the walls. People were alarmed. But IT WAS LATE. It was Late. Trees were uprooted. Roads kept vanishing. Villages were disappearing. Millions were dying. Hopes vanquished. Prayers gone astray. Innocent Lives were Lost. My Land was drowning. It was the 05B. It was October 29. And it was the Super Cyclone. May be its true. That, Nature has always the Last Laugh.