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And thus I live my life.

I stare out of my window, looking into nothing,
And then laughed at my indifferent behavior
But then I weep at the whys and hows
Again I chide myself for being so weak.
And thus I live my life,
Walking along.. this pseudo world.

The leaves are rustling, so does my heart,
The sky is cloudy, so is my mind
And the night is still. But my thoughts are not.
The moon, though, gives me company.
My empty room surrounds me all around.
And thus I live my life,
Walking along.. this pseudo world.

I wonder whats the so called busyness
And wonder if I'll ever live the real life,
Am talking to so many faces, communicating with none.
Am I unique? Or just plain lonely?
But thus I live my life,
Wandering along the masses,
and Walking along.. this pseudo world.

...just an extempore!!

So here I sit
Bored and depressed
Thinking of ways
That I can become a success
It's nerve wrecking
Sitting at home, alone
When others are out having a good time
It makes me wonder
How is life still worth it?
The me I once knew,
No longer lives anywhere near
In a flash I was gone
Leaving behind an empty shell
I see off in the distance
Someone I want to become
Someone I miss,
Who knew happiness-
A small reflection
Of who I was inside
I feel like everyone hates me
And that I am socially rejected
But it doesn't matter
cos I am as good as dead
I bet you are reading this
and I bet you are ready to judge
so be my guest
Sometimes I wonder
Why I was put on this earth
Like what my purpose is here
and why I am feeling so hurt
I feel like I am standing in the rain
Crying in pain
Thinking of everybody in vain
As I move closer to the goal
The me that I want to be
Always seems to be just a step away.
I hate the position
That I am in right now
But eventually things will get better
and I won't…

Cries you can't see.

I heard this song today, and just kept hearing it again and again. Its "What I've done" from the Linkin Park, and I am posting the lyrics below.

What I've Done lyrics

In this farewell
There’s no blood
There’s no Alibi
‘Cause I’ve Drawn Regret
From the truth
Of a Thousand Lies

So let Mercy Come
And Wash Away

what i`ve Done
I've faced myself
To Cross out what I’ve Become
Erase Myself
And let Go of What I’ve done

Put to rest
What you Thought of Me
While I clean this Slate
With the Hands of Uncertainty

For What I’ve Done
I start again
And whatever pain may come
Today this ends
I’m Forgiving What I’ve Done

What I’ve Done
Forgiving What I’ve Done..

I today regret of every mistake I have done, and every time I have stood as a obstructing block to myself and my dreams. I am not so sure, but I promise to try better this time.

Its never good.

So this week it has gone from acceptable to bad, and now to worse. Its just not understandable for me how much have I eluded myself from studies, my parents.. and other people. I have been doing things I like, only forgetting my duties and responsibilities.

I am a dumb idiot. I never knew how to react to situations. Maybe will never ever know. A close friend of mine called me up an evening a few days back, and I started blabbering how I had missed her so much that day, and how I was trying to call her but thanks to the network I had never really been on line. (Which was true, of course, cos I never lie on such events.) There was only silence on the other end, an eerie silence. After a pause, she said, "You know what, my father has passed away..". I stood stunned. "What?", I said. Then she said more clearly, and this time my heart felt for her. I didn't know what to say. So dumb was I. The rest of the conversation just elaborates my stupidity a bit more.

Ah, toda…

..not just another post.

I am not just posting something today for the sake of posting alone. This is an afterthought to a bizarre incident that once occurred in the Lord Jagannath Temple, Puri, where the Temple authorities admonished a Muslim family of three(all females) for entering the Temple premises. Not only that, they said horrible things to them about Islam caste and Muslims and a lot of other undescribable things. Is God not One for all? I just don't know where does this narrow mindedness came from..!!

I remember, one day while traveling in a bus to my village, I got a seat besides a lady with a 3 -yr old cute child, who were deeply engrossed in a mother - child talk. As the bus moved further we passed a herd of cows, and the mother helped the child identify the animal - "That's a cow, see, it has two eyes like you, and two ears, one nose..". Through most of the journey(until, of course, the child fell asleep) The mother helped the kid associate with the things passing by, helping it…

I am ur Music, Let me in, or I would Barge in.

If I was a Beat I would Pound in your Chest,
And I would Beat You so Loud that You would Get No Rest
You'd Toss and You'd Turn, Counting for a Little Sleep
But as a Shit as I am, I would Scare Off all your Sleep.

If I was a Rhythm I'd Flutter in Your Ear,
Until I fluttered so Loud that you wouldn't just Hear
You'd Hush me Away, and You'd be so Precise..
But You Aren't gonna Get Rid of me, I am Damn too Nice.

If I was a Melody, so Pleasant and Plain,
I'd Bury your Eardrums and You'd go Insane.
You'd Submerge Yourself in Books to make me Benign
But my Constant Irritation would just Rot Your Mind.

If I was a voice, I'd Wrap around your Wrist,
And you'd be So Full of Hate you'd Always Make a Fist
You'd Smash in the Walls in your Home and at Work.
And your poor Stupid Friends would call it a Quirk Behavior.

If I was a Song I'd get Stuck in your Head
And you'd Try to Scratch it Out Till you ended up Dead..!!
Your Nails would dig through your Own…

...the 05B.

One of those Days
a few years ago,
just more than 8 years ago-
something hit my town.
something hit my state.
something hit my people.
October was dying.
People were preparing
for the upcoming winter.
Steady rains started pouring.
Few alarms raised.
Fewer warning bells.
The days was usual.
Wind kept charging.
Rains kept teeming.
Waters broke the walls.

People were alarmed.
It was Late.
Trees were uprooted.
Roads kept vanishing.
Villages were disappearing.
Millions were dying.

Hopes vanquished.
Prayers gone astray.
Innocent Lives were Lost.
My Land was drowning.

It was the 05B.
It was October 29.
And it was the Super Cyclone.

May be its true. That,
Nature has always the Last Laugh.

Under your Wings, Papa

Dear Readers, wish the rainy season is going well with you.. You know? I have always thought how people think something about their own mother or father and write down a tribute.. There must have been some big event preceding. So I sat down, thought hard how to write one, and am now out with a few lines. Lets hope this interests you guys...

You are my Angel,
With wings furled
Around Me, To shelter me,
From the Claws of Harm.

You were down below
to catch me, when I fell.
You were up there
To reach out with your hands open
For me to hold on
As I climbed up the Stairs of Life.

Under your wings,
I feel safe and secure.
I know no Fear,
or Doubts or Drear.

Under your wings,
I know you care
When you safely
Bring me down
From those Dark Clouds
of Insecurity, and Loneliness.
I Love You.
As My Father, a Friend, and Furthermore..

Rains.. and a Relation...

Tiny drops Crystal drops Precious drops ease, quench, and soothe the barren hearth of solitude. And the sound of the rains falling- Declare the celebration of a special relation.

Legend says its the Angels' tears Are you with me to disagree? Sages traversed the celestial to seek for the answer but my heart knows the reason, clearly these precious tiny Crystal drops that declare The strong existence that really cares.
Existence of the perfect friendship...
Existence of the ideal friendship...
Existence of the undying friendship...
That's just the feeling of being there for each other, at times of joy, of sorrow, of happenings and mishappenings.. That's just being.. FRIENDS...


Who is a friend? (the most asked question-the least understood question)

Is he the one who comes and enjoys your party?
Is he the one who stays back with you to clean up, once everyone else has left?

Is he the one who wishes 'get well soon' when you are unwell?
Is he the one who sits by your side and holds your hand until you are fine?

Is he the one who tells you 'don't worry it will be fine'?
Is he the one who keeps talking to you until you are actually fine?

Is he the one who keeps coming and going?
Is he the one who stays?

Is he the one who tells you what you want to hear?
Is he the one who tells you what is good for you?

Is he the one you can't talk to more than a 'hi' or a 'bye' or a few nice lines?
Is he the one with whom you can't run out of topics?

Is he the one you hide things from, because one wrong impression about you and he'll stop talking to you?
Is he the one you cannot hide anything from, as every secret shared, brings hi…

The Deadliest Snakes in the World

I guess this might interest you also.. so I decided to put up this in my blog. Personally, I like it very much.

1) FierceSnake or Inland Taipan (Oxyuranus microlepidotus ), Australia. The most toxic venom of any snake. Maximum yield recorded (for one bite) is 110mg. That would porbably be enough to kill over 100 people or 250,000 mice. With an LD50 of 0.01 mg/kg, it is about 10 times as venomous as a Mojave Rattlesnake and 750 times as venomous as a common cobra. The Fierce Snake is native to the arid regions of central Australia, extending from the southeast part of the Northern Territory, and into west Queensland.

2) Australian Brown Snake (Pseudonaja textilis ), Australia. One 1/14,000 of an ounce of this vemon is enough to kill a person. The Eastern Brown Snake (Pseudonaja textilis) – sometimes referred to as the Common Eastern Brown Snake is the world’s second most venomous land snake, native to Australia and may also be found on the pen…

Top 10 most Luxurious Assests

A wet, boring Hiiee to my readers cos I dont like it when rains interrupt my plans for an outing. So, I am surfing for hours together, and theres something I wanna show to my readers. So heres my Top 10 most Luxurious Assests.

1. The Diamond Crypto Smartphone

This phone is tagged as the costliest phone of the world

* Designed by luxury accessories maker Peter AloissonIt
* Features a cover adorned with 50 diamonds, ten of which are the rare blue ones
* Few sections made in rose gold
* Manufactured by the Moscow-based JSC Ancort Company
* High-resolution color TFT display
* Stores up to 4000 numbers in it’s memory.
* Uses powerful encryption technology to provide special security
* Windows C

$1.3 Million

2. Bugatti Veyron

There are only a few cars out there today that has such technical sophistication like this one. It has a look that’s quite unorthodox, yet strangely appealing.

* massive 8.0-litre, quad turbo engine
* carbon fibre-reinforced chassis and aluminium body panels
* 100…

Dear Rain Drop,

Falling down from heaven
Flowing to a side to pool up
Between you kiss my cheeks
Refresh all my lost senses

You are not the same to everyone
To some you are precious
To some you are a disaster
To me, you are a precious friend

You bring me a sweet smile
You dont show off my tears
Your tinest form is a joy
Your presence I always Enjoy

You are an art, you are a song
You are a beauty, you are a charm
You are not often there
But still, you are special

Dear Rain Drop,
My heart falls open when I stand in you
I feel no sorrow I feel no pain,
I feel so complete when I am with you..!!!

Kuch Panktiyan Dil Se...

Hiiiee friends.. After a long time I am posting something..and that too not mine... After "Teri maujudgi si hai..." and "I want to be..." this is the third one...

ab to hur gali, hur ghar veeraan hai,
suna hai rehne walo ne thikana badal liya

maikhana bhi tum aur jaam bhi,
subah bhi tum aur shaam bhi,
aashiqui ki hadh hai kayaamat ab,
ki ibaadat bhi tum aur khuda ka naam bhi.

khaamoshi ke veeraane mein hum,
akele akele se hain,
khuda kare ki koi keher ho,
aur tere hone ka ehsaas bhi..

khwaahisho ki, armaano ki,
aur khwaabo ki bheed,
khoya hua sa dil bhi,
in mein khud ko dhoondti

zakhmo ka kuchh aisa,
sailaab utha hai seene mein,
ki ab to ye dard,
mere jeene ki ummeed ko churayega,
haan, shayad kabhi koi pagal shaayar,
mera bhi afsaana dohraayega...

aaj apne dhool lage sapno mein,
subah se kuchh dhoond rahe hain,
haan pata hai yaheen milegi,
subah se humaari muskaan khoyi khoyi si hai..

meri hasi mein chhipe dard ko,
pehchaanta tha koi,
mere ashko ko ankho mein,
sambhaalta tha koi,